A Shadow's Silence

I was very quiet this past year when it came to keeping up with my blog. I really felt that nothing happened in the last 12 months was story worthy. In all actuality a lot of good and new things happened last year.

The first interesting thing that happened this year was I added blonde highlights to my hair. I know what your thinking "Wow big deal...." I was blonde all through out high school. Sometimes with brown highlights, but the majority of the time it was long and blonde. Shortly after graduation I went more brown with blonde highlights. Then a year or two later fully dark and haven't thought about doing any blonde since. I wanted a change, a change that didn't include chopping my hair off. So it had been 8-9 years since I had any blonde, that's why it was a big deal.

In previous posts I talked about overcoming a fear. I've deeply wanted to better myself and prove that I am a strong person. I have a HUGE list of fears if you haven't seen that already. I overcame a very large fear that has kept me grounded forever (excuse the pun). I flew to visit one of my best friends in Toronto, Canada. Did you hear that I got in a plane and flew across the country to another country! I did it all by myself, no one traveled with me. I've always been so shy and felt like I could never accomplish anything or survive alone out in the world. It was a great adventure, I'm extremely happy I was able to go and overcome getting on a plane.

I started another job after that, it was kinda crazy for me to accept the offer. I felt like I had enough on my plate working full time and doing cake orders on the side. However I also felt I needed something new in my life. Surrounding myself with other soccer fans seem like it would be a fun and exciting experience. Even though it ruined my perfect home game attendance technically I was there just not in the stands. I met so many new people and made long lasting friendships.

I got to go to Las Vegas a couple times as completely spontaneous trips. Those were very fun but very short trips. Although I'm not sure my liver would let me stay longer than a couple days. I do remember drinking lots, searching for bumble bees made of flowers and Criss Angel.

Last year was also a good year health wise. Alex didn't need to be rushed to an Emergency Room, and never got extremely sick as in the past few years. Unfortunately I did have one Emergency Room visit which ended up being for basically nothing. When I say basically nothing it stands for Ovarian Cysts. Which have become such a common occurrence they are now basically nothing but costing me lots of money. No pig flus, no bad headaches, no stitches which equals a very healthy year.

For Thanksgiving I helped make a delicious dinner, when I say helped I honestly didn't do much. I did make cupcakes for dessert though so I guess it counts as helping. It turned out to be one of my top 5 Thanksgivings I've ever had. Top ones being when I was a little girl and Grandma Hansen was alive. Becoming a vegetarian in middle school and high school really put the fun out of it. For some reason it marked a day to constantly fight with the ex. So from when I was little I didn't have another great Thanksgiving until this year. I was very Thankful.

Even though we had a countdown in every room of the house, Christmas jumped out from around the corner. Santa sent Alex a video saying how proud he was of all his hard work during the year. He came to our house and really spoiled us. Alex got Lego's hes been wanting and I even got some boots I've been envying. It didn't snow this year but we did get to play with some artificial snow we got to make from a packet. It didn't give us frostbite, so it was snow I could play with for hours.

New Years followed very fast and while I never made any resolutions, I never seem to keep them anyway. I did reflect on the year it started out slow but ended with fireworks. I've definitely had a much more positive year. The last few had very bumpy roads, and lots of searching for who and where I wanted to be. The roads have finally started to smooth out and I found who I am. As for where I want to be... well I guess we will see.

"Change has been

Change will be

Time will tell

Then time will ease"

Collective Soul - Reunion